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Saturday, 31 May 2008

9:33 am

deleted de post written in de morning as my thoughts were rather disorganized...initially wanna edit de..but...wateva...spent de whole afternoon alone at de gong de tang miao... alone.. cuz mum went bangkok with e ma..quite contradicting since de great singapore sales is here n she go spend money to go overseas to buy cheap stuff... weird~ n dad went for a business trip n will return tonight i tink...
stoning for near 7 hrs...juz staring into blank space n counting de no. of neighbours my ahma got...a total of 19 n dere r still many spaces to be filled... cuz firstly u muz pay such a big sum of money n also muz be a relative of someone who had donated money to build de miao...
wondering de vulnerability of life....perhaps we r juz chess pieces tt r controlled by higher beings... deaths can be so ridiculous at times...it can oso be torturous at times...every yr dere is an average of 2 ppl who die cuz dey were striked by lightning... we may be living happily todae or tis very sec..but de nxt moment we can be de 'lucky souls' who r striked by lightning... dere may oso be chances wen we find tumours start growing in places we dont want to know... pessismistic as it may sounds but human lives are still vulnerable to forces of nature... we cant control mutation tt occur in our body nor can we prevent lightning to strike us... even wen sciences is developing in such a rapid speed... we can only prolong our lives or predict de nature's activity... predict= not alwaes accurate...n science simplifies so much stuff.. now dey even explain love as production of hormones in both male n females..n most of de time it wont last 3 yrs...
at de same time... life is juz occurence of chances n luck... not long ago i was juz made up of 2 cells tt are made up of haploid no of chromosomes... as minute as de cheek cells or de dead skins on ur skin... perhaps even worst cuz dey got diploid no of chromosomes... de wae we look are oso by chances..our genders... tt's y each of us r unique... or simply put we r form cuz interactions of atoms n molecules... n wen we r also subjected to atoms n molecules.. de durian smell are juz complex molecules.. de ripening of fruits are cuz of ethene produced... even our lives after birth are filled with chances n luck... to meet someone on de street... it already nd a probability of 1/6.7billion... n to find a friend requires more chances so tt one can talk to another... n to find someone u love dere is a lower probabilty...
a post full of crap n wuliaoness.... i dunnno wat im tinking doing typing.... but at least i found de answer...dere is a high chance i will be going... cuz i gonna to TESLLUF EHT TO EFIL EVIL... woah... i juz realise live inverted is evil... oman....