Wednesday, 10 December 2008
10:12 am
gonna to be another emoish post ahead so please avoid reading if your life totally rocks! 2 more days before i head towards tekong to start my 24/7 pe, shouting, shooting, crying, and cold-feeting... my heart clenched and my stomach went flip flop every time i think of leaving my comfort zone and going to a place which is filled with unknowns (in a bad sense)... the only thing you know is that life is going to be tough and you will be so tired that you will forget about bathing... you have to wash your own clothes and even write names on your underwear to prevent people from stealing... (which i believe is totally redundant since if i know someone steal my underwear... am i suppose to look at everyone's underwear?!) there maybe people you can't trust... and others may attempt to backstab you... maybe my nervousness is due to fact that im going to be alone with people that im not sure of and i may make a bad choice to befriend them... its gonna to be a place that you cant crack jokes anytime anywhere and cant let anyone see your soft side... i may just change and become a different person when i come out... a person with personality that i may not like... maybe a best pal beside you will be a good thing... but a best pal that you only meet 4-5 times a year and chat on msn... is he really a best friend? im not very sure of his personality now... and im not sure of what and how he thinks now... argh... all these typing of emoish stuff just make my hands and feets went cold and my body starts shaking... ytdae lunch was indeed a success... we totally ate like 4hrs non-stop... eatting, chatting, cooking and laughing... but the 'aftertaste' wasnt good... especially when im at home alone in my room... it just shows me that there can be a chance im going to lose a whole bunch of good friends and i will have lesser and lesser time to spend with them... damn life sometimes really hurts...
